Crawling Back To You

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So have you got the guts?
Been wondering if your heart’s still open and if so I wanna know what time it shuts
Simmer down and pucker up
I’m sorry to interrupt, it’s just I’m constantly on the cusp of trying to kiss you
I don’t know if you feel the same as I do
But we could be together if you wanted to

Do I wanna know?
If this feeling flows both ways?
Sad to see you go
Was sort of hoping that you’d stay
Baby we both know
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day

Crawling back to you

Ever thought of calling when you’ve had a few?
‘Cause I always do
Maybe I’m too busy being yours to fall for somebody new
Now I’ve thought it through

Crawling back to you

Do I wanna know?
Too busy being yours to fall
Sad to see you go
Ever thought of calling darling?
Do I wanna know?
Do you want me crawling back to you?

-A.M.

Simmer Down and Pucker Up

Tuesday July 1st 2014, 12:11am.
Happy Canada Day! 🙂

I woke up with another headache this morning. But I had all day to “rest”. Did my laundry, caught up with my television shows, made dinner, and supported my brother at his soccer game.

Stupid janitor who stood me up texted me last night and throughout today. He feels bad for what he did especially with everything else I have to deal with. I think he’s still interested. Which is fine, I am too.
Only difference, it won’t be so easy for him this time around. I build walls and lose my trust in people that hurt me.

I work from 7:45am-noon/1ish tomorrow. Then I’ll be hightailing it home to change, grab the booze and go to my besties for some fun and games. It’s supposed to call for rain… But fingers crossed its not that bad. We’ll probably go to ” the hill” at some point to hang out and get a good spot for the fireworks.

I’ve been obsessed with the Arctic Monkeys lately, specifically Do I Wanna Know? The video is a little strange, but the music is great. (In my opinion).

I’m so pumped for this month (July) and September. We host two big outdoor concerts that last for several days. This month, it’s Bluesfest. I’ve been going every year for a while now. This year I would really like to see Lady Gaga and Tegan and Sara (since I missed them last year). In September we host Folkfest and one of my new all time favorite artists this year, Lorde, will be there!!!!! There is no way in hell I’m missing her!
I also enjoy Foster the People, I’m not sure if they are coming this year to Folkfest, but they have a concert tour date located here.

Good night. Talk soon.

Little Pervy Boys

Just when you start to forgive and forget, it comes back.
What does it want from me? All it does is make my life a living hell. Full of stressful emotions I don’t need in my life right now.
Go away!

I plastered bitches to the ground in soccer tonight, it was great! 🙂
Although, it was very warm out. I almost had an asthma attack, not so great.

I have tomorrow off and hope to get up in time to go to the beach. I need time away and by myself to relax and clear my head.

I need to go back to the docs for a med check. I had a migraine again today, and I still have a headache now.

I’m sexually frustrated… It’s annoying. I feel like some little perverted boy who would hump anything that moves.

Goodnight. Talk soon.

F-U-C-K

The mosquito’s at work today were awful. I was INSIDE and still managed at least 5 bites. Tomorrow morning, I train some new guy. I hope he’s competent… I’m in no mood to deal with stupid people.

My night guard is digging into my gums right now, its uncomfortable.

I feel like I complain too much, do I? … Sorry.

I want to go out and get drunk and dance the night away. Make out with hot guys and/or girls. I would like a carefree, do whatever the hell you want day. I feel like that would not only be nice for me, but for everyone.
Do they call those “me days”?
I don’t think its acceptable to call into work to ask for a me day where all I do is do reckless shit.

I’ve been in this weird/off mood the past few days and my swearing has escalated WAY too high. I need to reign it in on the f bombs, at least.

I wish I could travel.

Goodnight. Talk soon.

1-2-3, 1-2-3, Drink

I have this horrible habit of biting my nails when I’m anxious. Not scary anxiety, but the kind you get when you are anticipating part of a great movie. I took my little brother to see Transformers: Age of Extinction after both of our grad dinners. My nails are now stubs because the movie was so good.

Random Note: I’m obsessed with Sia’s more recent song,  Chandelier.

My brother’s grade 8 graduation was this morning. I’m very proud of him. Along with graduating, he also was the recipient for the Sportsmanship award. He and I are both very athletic, so this medal is a great honor and a big deal.

My migraine has finally faded away now. But I’m sure it’ll be back tomorrow morning… If it keeps on it’s cycle. If it does, I will need to stop my meds again. Which is a terrifyingly scary thought.

I restocked my marijuana supply today and had a few drinks at dinner… All things I shouldn’t be doing, but just don’t care enough to stop.

I work both days this weekend… Kind of shitty. And I also found out I work Canada Day (July 1st), which is a big deal for us. So I’ve been so bummed about that today too.

I don’t sleep very well, so I find I need a lot to feel even somewhat rested. I’ve gotten very small amounts of sleep all week. I’m excited to fall asleep, since I’m exhausted, and not wake up to an alarm.

Goodnight. Talk soon.

Migraines

Great… Horrible migraines all day.
Which means my medication isn’t working… Back to the doctors… And back to experimenting.

Gah…

Feeling sick to my stomach. Its flopping around like a fish. My anxiety level is rising. My hearts racing. I think if it gets worse I might cut. I don’t like these moments, they’re horrendous.